Since I was a young kid, I could not stand being told what to do. If my parents told me to do something I would not listen. They needed to ask me if I would like to do something for me to even consider it. When teachers tell me to do stuff, I find it extremely hard not to just ignore them. That's just who I am. I don't like taking the backseat in my life and letting everyone else tell me what to do. I would like to take life by reigns and have complete control over my life. Now, what I have realized is that, that does not work. It truly is difficult for me to admit this, but it is true and I have to get it off my chest. Over the past couple of days I have thought long and hard about the fact that I pushed people away. At first I just wanted to deny that what I was doing actually was happening. Finally, however, I realized that the first step to dealing with an issue is to admit that you have a problem. My entire life, my parents have said to me that if I don't let people into my life now, I will be alone in the future. That is one of the things that can truly haunt people for their entire lives. One of those things that when you grow old every time you look into the mirror, you will think to yourself; what have I done?, I wish I had let people just help. That is one of those things that can change who you are, and finally, that is one of those things that can change your life. While that may have taken me a while to acknowledge, I finally have and I am sure it will help me throughout my life.